The world is not for you to understand,
Your path is not plotted miles in advance on your maps....

But in the Lords eyes you have already crossed every burning bridge,
every rocky road you have defeated,
every mistake deleted.

fields of ash born again into lush green,
love and destruction you have seen.

The ages and wrinkles of time have been long drawn on your face,
he has seen your birth and final resting place.

You cry out in anguish for answers and a sign,
but he pays no attention, Is he not divine?

He worries not for the muck and dust of your everyday travels,
because he has seen the milestones that lie ahead.
He know the ups and downs you will tread.

The lord laughs at what you fear losing now,
because he knows it is worthless.
He laughs because he knows true happiness.

He stays quiet and just waits
days turn to weeks, weeks to years,
and still no answer seems near.

But like a bolt of lightning his answer will be revealed,
and all the pains and sorrows exposed to be mirrors and smoke,
And you cry in joy and thanks for he has finally spoke!!!!

But still he laughs and sits quietly ,
for he has nothing to say to you,
in your days of darkness you cried you were lost,
but not till now he gets you through?

"Lost" he finally says?
"is that what you call it" slightly angered...
"I make the stars and call them by name,
I have build every creature and to me they are tame,
I have healed the blind and set forth the lame,
I have brought cities to there knees and walls to flames,
I have cheated death and beat satin at his own game,
I have calmed storms higher than any hurricane,
All you have to lose, is mine, as is all you have to gain,
Do you think only joys come from me and i dont see the pain?
Do I not know the number of hairs on your head?
Do I not hear your prayers each night at bed?
When the faithful go hungry are the not fed?
do you think you where lost and no one led?

He finally settles down and comes back to a smile,
When you were "lost" he says,
Well thats funny....
Every day I had planned came true.
You crossed burning bridge I build for you,
You climbed every mountain I made you do,
You lived every sorrow I brought you through.

Do you think at any point it was not my plan?
I like said in the beginning,
This world is not for YOU to understand. 

Ups and Downs

I met her on the Ups,
and fell in love on the Downs,
Then got married on an Up,
just before the Down came around,
She has stayed with me always,
through hell and through good, 
and at the darkest bottom,
her love still patiently stood, 
So as we climb higher,
and higher ever more, 
you best believe 100,
who my next Up is for ♥

Hand in hand we walk this miserable land but something about your presence makes the rain seem to gleam like a sun beam breaking through dusk and dust to my heart where a spark breaks free. My soul dance to your beat my drum stills to the sound of your feet. My night dreams of when we meet again in the morning, without warning I awake with even more over whelming love, not from the earth but above

 like gods flying doves you give me hope. Into our marriage his words spoke only the truest of true. The greatest love of existence expressed in me and you, for the world to see that he is real. I cant imagine being a day the other way. Without you my lifes gray. Bring me that color never lose the shine. You are my life…. Love everlasting ♥

Fear This Fearless

Some days didn’t go my way,

But still im here,

Storms roll in skies of Gray,

But still I stand.

Fires burn in memories glare,

But I did not run,

Destiny cries in the morning air,

But my day is not done.

Has but hasn’t begun.

Nights of pain, Days of doubt,

Life’s a drought, What’s it all about.

Its Fallout.

Fall in,

No! Fallen,

Lost one.

Who won?

Graves dance,

Beneath the sun,

I woke up today,

Feeling like I’m the one,

The winner.

Fearless heart,

Less we grow apart,

No! fear God,

Death to start,

You won today,

But today is yesterday,

Tomorrow,

Save your sorrow,

I will never borrow,

Nor beg your mercy,

Tread my broken glass,

Blow a kiss to the past.

It’s in his hands,

But guns on hand,

Seize the Day,

Still I stand. 

SGH

In Your Eyes

You look into my eyes and see the pains of my past,

Like ashes to dust the inner waves of flames extinguish,

Like the fire pit ran cold and the smoke still settles in the morning,

You see all the anguish,

The complacency, the lack of warning,

You see the failures and the nights of gray,

And all the doors I locked on my way,

Bridges crumble and fall, and it strikes twelve….

Like Cinderella’s ball, times still falls, fell..

You see it in my eyes, so your divine intuition tells you so,

And if you see what you see, then by God’s grace you must know,

And the mask of the puppet at the days last show,

Shines bright…

Like the face of hers that night,

Because when she looks into my eyes she sees no past,

She sees the piece of charcoal that glows red, covered in ash,

So sees not the cocoon, not the egg, the destruction of war,

The savage grenade..

Not what the world tells her is true,

She sees the future in my eyes..

She tells me, “I see you”,

To frost, you were lost,

But I can alleviate his pain,

Most of life’s trains will all whistle the same,

Big and small dogs are contained behind their fence,

For its not the road you travel,

But who you travel with,

And THATS what made all the difference. 

SGH